update--

i know. i know. blogging is honestly a MUST.

so i would love to tell you something life changing has happened. But lately it has just kinda been the same. Which is a good thing. Because there is nothing to not love about my life at the moment. I mean there i things that i would not mind being a little different here and there. But for the most part life is perfect!

Well first of all, please be praying for Carolyn Williams & the family. She is my Aunt Sonia's mother and she is probably one of the sweetest people you will ever meet. Growing up she was just like a grandmother to me. Unfortunately she has been battling ovarian cancer for around 10 years. She has had it 4 separate times and done chemo. Well this time the doctors said there was nothing they could do. So we are gonna have to let her go. Which is one of the hardest things ever for me to even think about. But if we could get our selfish little minds to go away for even just a minute, we would know that dying is the best thing that could happen to any of us. Grandar is going to be in a better place very soon. And better off than any of us has ever even thought about being. So i know i want to keep her here. But life will be so much better for her. Please just continue to keep the family in your prayers. : )

Second of all, it has kind of been one of those weeks. Where things all of a sudden out of no where fall apart. I know Satan is testing me. I just know it. But i am not going to let him get the best of me. He has tried to scramble things up a bit. But i will make sure he fails. After all if you really think about what is important in life, you learn that all the little things don't matter. I know my life is gonna have ups and downs where Satan is gonna try and get me but, the thing is... i know the end of the story. I know i belong to Jesus forever. and that is unchangeable.

Last but not least, im in love with summer. And this one has gone by MUCH too fast. But lucky for me i still have things to look forward to.( Like im going to the mountains and 25 people are staying in one house. But they are all like family so its gonna be GOOD times. : ) ) And even though i absolutely hate the thought of school starting back i know this is gonna be a good year. I can just feel it. This year just seems to exactly right. Everything is in place. I got great classes, perfect teachers. All of my friends are exactly who i want them to be. (the friend road has been a tough one lately) but i know where i am is perfect. I know it is where God wants me. Family is going great. Our sweet little Ethiopian princess gets closer everyday. (pray for that one). And i have my Jesus right next to me. : ) life is good.

blahh.

lovin life.

lovin people.

lovin Jesus.

SUMMER : )

AH.

SUMMER. SUMMER. SUMMER.

(its upon us)

so far my summer has been the best summer EVER.

I have already been to the beach, Choir Tour, VBS, Lake, and plenty of spend the nights.

Here is a picture update. :)

speechless.

ohhhhh mygosh.

im super super super sorry.

i know, i know. it has been like 3 months.

but i am reviving my blog as of right now.

So i am just gonna jump on this whole blogging thing again.

OKAY.

tonight i was at the christ city church event at hunter street.

wow.

i was left absolutely speechless multiple times.

we sang a song that i have not only heard but... sang a million times.

but tonight it had so much meaning to it.

it was like a brand new song being sang to my soul.

the lyrics are:

Creator God you gave

ME breath so i could praise

your great and MATCHLESS name

all my days, all my days.

i mean read that thoroughly.

are you still in shock?

i mean the only reason God gave us breath was for us to praise him.

he is JEALOUS for us. he wants us more than anyone else.

he does not want us to give any effort towards anything that would not help to further the kingdom.

and then on top of that, did you read the part that said

"his great and MATCHLESS name"

i mean. his name is totally and 100% matchless.

nothing on earth could even possible compare.

our good is as filthy rags to him...

so imagine what our sin looks like to him...

yeah, that is not a fun thought!

but goodness gracious.

why does he love us so much anyways.

could you truly love someone who is constantly stabbing you in the back.

constantly forgetting you. and putting retarded stuff before you.

NO.

but we act like that all the time. and God not only puts up with it.

he loves us no matter what. he forgives us no matter what.

He not only loves us enough to send his Son to die FOR us.

but INSTEAD of us.

(im gonna leave with that)

speechless.

obsession worthy? he is...

look at me.

i have done it again.

another month. (what the heck)

so sorry...

anyways, lately life has seemed like a fairy tale(:

grades are decent, spring break is almost here, and i have the cutest boyfriend on earth.

But i keep reminding myself, this is not why i am here.

I am not here to be obsessed with life. I am here to be obsessed with God.

I get obsessed with things easily. TOO easy.

when i find something new that i like, i get obsessed.

and it is ALL i think about, but therefore the new wears off fast. TOO fast.

Therefore, i have decided the only thing that the new will not wear off of is God.

He is never changing but he is always a mystery. <--- insane.

So he is the only thing worth being obsessed with. the ONLY thing.

but i have to keep reminding myself of that, or i will become obsessed with things that are not worthy. (not good)

i am becoming more and more obsessed with God everyday... seeing more of his glory. : )

so good. so PERFECT. so God.

Change... : )

Oh gosh.

im sorry.

im sorry its been so long.

its been over a month.

uhh. my bad.

So even though its been i while im gonna

jump right back in to this whole blogging deal : )

Last week was a wakeUP call...

not in a bad way. but not in a good way.

i have realized we will not always sit and soak up our perfect lives.

(nothing other than the name of Christ is perfect.it may seem that way. but it wont last.)

But honestly we think our little ray of sunshine will last forever. (or we hope)

but sooner or later God is gonna shake it up to say "you need me. BAD"

Life changes often.

Learn to live with it

and don't fear change.

God knows what he is doing!

This week. i have learned a better concept of love.

love is here with us. always.

no matter what kind of love. people do love you.

I have been a more loving friend this week.

I have been a more loved friend this week.

at the time where you think love is gone, its actually overflowing.

You get hit in the face with how fast something can be gone.

I want to love a person like it is my last day with them.

I want to love a person like it's the first time.

I want to love a person like the Father loves his people. (not possible)

but its worth a try. right? : )

Honestly i am SOOO blessed.

yet there is SOOO much i take for granted. (all the time)

blah.

but its so true!

I have the best:

family

friends

teachers

role models

siblings.

cousins.

church family.

a girl could even ask for....

yet a forget about how lucky i am to have them ALL the time.

I hurt people.

and then i look back and think

"what did you do, you little selfish child"

because i could not ask for a better life then the one God has placed me in.

yet i mess it up often. very often.

the point of this blog...

just love. everyone.

you don't know when God will take them away.

you don't know what will happen with them tomorrow.

so just love them.

whoever is reading this.

iloveyousomuch.

and i am sorry if i have ever hurt you in anyway.

: ) lex!

Others before yourself : )

Ok so did you know humans are selfish? Well we are. VERY.

So today has been a rather boring day... extremely boring!

I babysat allllll morning. And when my mom got home i planed to go up to my grandmothers to help with Christmas cooking : ).

Well by the time i could go...she was done.

Also i asked kayla to come over but... that did not work.

So i have literally been doing nothing for like the past 2 hours.

But then i thought...

WOW im am SOO. self-ish.

I am sitting here in a heated house.

with a lemonade in my hand.

on my warm bed.

with my macbook in my lap.

YEAHH.

There are people in Africa today who will not eat.

who will not drink.

who will die.

There are people in ALABAMA who will not eat.

not drink.

and die.

WOAH. hold up.

There are people in my TOWN who will not eat.

not drink.

and die tonight.

yet here i am being a selfish little brat.

what THA heck.

i was created in the image of Christ. is this how Christ acts... ummm.

i think NOT. not at all.

Is this how Christ intended for us to act. i think NOT.

So think about others before thinking about how "terrible" your life is.

:)...

Merry CHRISTmas Everyone!!!

Keep your eyes on the prize (HIM)!

Keep your eyes one the prize.

The prize is HIM.

Jesus Christ. LORD. Savior. Best Friend.

Satan wants you too leave him for something else.

Don't let Satan win. Don't let him get he wants.

Satan is VERY sneaky. He can let things get in the way all the time.

We are here because of God.

We are living because of God.

Everything we are is because of God.

So why should we not give him our all.?

WE SHOULD. but...

Do we? Do we always give him our all?

Well if you just said yes, that is a lie...

we should all act our lives like we are saved by the one and only savior. but we don't.

We get to caught up in earthly things.

DON'T loose focus. Keep your eyes on Jesus.

He is the only thing worth our time.

He is the only thing that will matter in the end.

He is LIFE! He is our all and all.

SO give him your ALL!