True love.

People fail us, over and over. And every time it happens we act SHOCKED. We get upset because we trusted that person. But, doesn't the Bible give us very clear warning that all humans will fail us. The only flawless and perfect love is the love of our Savior. The end, case closed.

No friend you will ever have or boy you will ever meet will make you happy all the time. Now, i don't know if this is true for you or not but i trust people much to easy and much to fast. It does not take a lot to gain my trust, even if i barely know you. And it actually takes a lot to loose it. I'm not sure why i am this way, it's just how God made me. So this is something i struggle with, because i forget that all people will fail me. No matter how perfect they seem, no one really is.

Now i have a pretty tight group of friends and i am more than blessed with each person in my life than i realize. I have a handful of people that i could not make it through my day without, and each of you know who you are. But even though i love these people with all of my heart, they sometimes fail me. Does that mean i love them any less? Absolutely not. It is just normally something that we have to work through, but honestly that normally makes our relationship stronger.

Even my family members fail me from time to time. Don't get me wrong i have the best family in the world but, hello they are human. What the heck can you expect... My parent always want the best for me but they do occasionally mess up. Even though my mom is literally super woman and can handle almost anything let me be the first to tell you, she does not always make you the happiest person in the world. And even my daddy occasionally makes me irritated. And trust every single one of siblings drive me insane sometimes. i love every single one of them to death, but they are not perfect.

Last but not least i epically FAIL people non stop. I fail my friends, family, even people i barely know. I am so far from perfect it is ridiculous. And no i am not a "bad kid", i grew up in church, became a Christian at a very young age, and i love the Lord with all my heart. But that does not make me any better than the people who go out and get drunk every night. I am a born sinner. I mess up and hurt the people i care about the most. But most importantly i fail my Jesus over and over. He went to some a drastic measure to save me from all of my sin. He died a REAL and brutal death on the cross. Not the little drawing of the three crosses with the sunshine we scribbled growing up, but a horrid death. And he went through blood, bruises, and gashes for me and you. Yet we fail him over and over, and all he wants is us. He wants us more than any other person will ever want us. And we cheat on him, and lie to him constantly. That is true love.

He is perfect.

We are nothing.

thankyouJESUS.

"What is man, that you make so much of him, and then you set your heart upon him" Job 7:17

"The Lord is my helper, i will not fear, what can man do to me?" Hebrews 13:6

remain in the Lord. :)

Okay, new years resolution number one: stay updated on my blog. So sorry about the blogging shortage lately, i realize it has been ridiculously too long. So much has happened since i last blogged and i have had numerous things to blog about. But i will try not to over do it on this one.

First and most importantly i have come to realize so many things in the Lord. I have discovered some bible verses that will no doubt stick with me forever. I have literally had Jesus in my face screaming "Stop drawing to others, instead of me. I am your father, the only person who is always faithful. Come to me, my child." I ignored it for a while. (you know typical human response, i got this under control thanks though." But before i knew it, i was on my face asking Jesus what i needed to do. One by one relationships began falling apart, until i realized it was because i had ignored to Lord months before when reading Bible verses like these:

"What is man, that you make so much of him, and that you set your heart on him." Job 7:17 (fave. ever.)

"The Lord is my helper, i will not fear, what can man do to me?" Hebrews 13:6 (holiness.)

I completely ignored little things like that. So God decided that he would YELL it at me by physically taking away things until i realized i needed him worse than anything. So about a month ago i had to apologize to people and God. I felt so shameful for ignoring him, and promised that i would listen next time. No matter how difficult, i was ready for what he had to say. I feel so much better after fixing things. And those verses i shared earlier will forever be in my head and heart. :)

Another cool thing that has been going on is the adoption. (not only ours). Precious little Esther is getting closer and closer. We have finished paperwork, home study, and all that jazz. And now all of the paper work is IN ETHIOPIA. We are officially on the waiting list. :) I honestly can not wait.

Also my aunt and uncle have decided to adopt for Korea, and let me be first to say she is one of the prettiest little girls i have ever seen. The story is incredible, God put everything perfectly in place for their adoption. Everything has worked out completely perfect, and i can not wait to get Daria here as well. As if our families together equaling 11 kids (soon 13) was not enough we decided to add a few more colors in :).

Keep praying for both adoptions if you do not mind.

Last thing i will mention today but FOR SURE not least is my precious friend Sydney McLemore. Probably one of the strongest people i have ever met. On november 22 she was in a terrible car accident. It was her and another precious friend Natalie Hurst. The car accident was a tragedy. And as upsetting as it is Natalie was killed in the accident. Sydney had 3rd degree burns on 18% of her body, and a broken hip. She was in the hospital for 5 weeks, and remained so strong. Not only was she dealing with physical pain but also the pain of loosing one of her best friends. Sydney is now home, and doing really well. We are all so proud of her, and she has been such an inspiration to many people. (including me. forsure) Sydney has proved that with God you can overcome anything and everything. I am more proud of her than i can even express. But please, keep her in your prayers, AND the Hurst family as they are still dealing with the loss of such a precious girl.

if you noticed all of my latest experiences have only happened because of people remaining in Lord. The Lord is the only constant person in your life. He is the only person who can be 100% positive that he will be there for you every single day of your life. So, please, take my word and remain in His.

i promise to write soon.

love yall. :)

Prayer changes things. :)

Two weeks ago today 3 of my friends were in a major golf cart accident. These were just three normal 15 year old kids. They have gone to church with me since i can remember, they are really good kids. So when this happened we just thought "why would this happen to them out of all people?" This was not a reck where all that happened was some bumps and bruises. This was SERIOUS. Madison broke almost every bone in her face and knocked out some teeth. Hunter had two scull fractures and was not conscious for 10 or so hours. Courtney got lucky and just had scrapes all over her. But they are all home and well after many MANY hours of praying.

Well three days after this happened with them and everything was beginning to look okay, a freshman from hoover had a brain aneurism. I did not know this kid, but many of my friends did. They said he was a sweet kid. Why did this happen to HIM? I mean that is so rare and unbelievable. He was not responses for about a week. And as of right now they still do not really know what is going to happen.

Because of these two accidents parents, teachers, church member, friends, and strangers have been on there knees praying for these kids. And just last week one of my best friends Lacey said "Lex, what would happen if we prayed like this all the time." And that hit me like a ton of bricks. If we always prayed all day, all the time we would live in a different world. We would change things, really REALLY change things. As humans when everything is okay we say "Don't worry God, we got this. I will let you know when you are needed." Then something terrible happens and we come crawling right back. That is not how it should be, we should be on our knees praying each and everyday just as much as we have been the past couple weeks. We could change the reputation of hoover, alabama, or america if we would all just pray like everything is crashing down even when it is all going great.

Just keep this in mind this week :).

Love you all.

perfect. :)

SO. this has been probably one of my favorite years ever. But, honestly EVERYTHING is falling in place.

First a most importantly, my heart has really opened up. I became a Christian when i was 4... so i never really felt like it was a big thing. Because when i was 4 it was more of a "hey i want to go to heaven" kinda thing. But, lately i have realized why i am here on earth. And there is only ONE reason. To worship my Lord and Savior. And to tell others about the incredible things he has done for US. SINNERS. (wow.) But, for about a month now i have read my Bible and Prayed every morning before i do school. And used to i did'nt really understand the Bible and i found it boring. But i look forward to reading it so much. I love feeling like knowledge is being POURED into me. And over all i just love Jesus. He knows what is best, and he will make it happen when the time is right.

Another thing is all my friends are exactly who i feel like they should be. I have always been blessed with good friends but, lately it is just perfect. Some friends come for a little bit and then leave. But the ones i have right now i feel for sure i will always have. Of course kay, we have been best friends for 2 and a half years now, and we have known each other for 4. God was up to something when he placed her in my life. She is honestly like my sister. And then so many others. Me and Brent have been dating for 6 months. and it has been incredible. I never understood why boys did not like me when i wanted them too. I now realize it is because God had this planned. And he always had. Even when i thought it would be impossible. Me and Scotty have been really close for about 6 months now, and that sounds so short because i feel like i have known him FOREVER. He is totally and completely the big brother i never had. So thankful for him. And there are so many more, all of my school friends have been the biggest blessing to me. I am so lucky to know each and everyone of them. They will be there forever. And all my church friends, we have such a good friendship. We are always growing closer. Plus new friends from Christ City. REALLY awesome people. :) (thankyouJESUS)

Last but not least my family :). We have always been looked at as the big crazy family. But we are so happy. I mean i have my days where i need some "lexie time" but, when it comes down too it i would not trade a single one of them for the world. And we even have a new addition coming soon from Ethiopia. (so EXCITED) And i feel like she is going to be the best little addition to our family. No lie, my mom is super woman. I do not know how she does it... i really hope when i grow up i can be as good as her. Although that is completely impossible. My daddy is the best daddys EVER. i will forever and always be a daddy's girl. FOREVER, even when i am all grown up a married. He will always be the most incredible man in my life. No guy will ever measure up to him. I guess i will have to settle for second best, since mom already stole the first. :)... Not to mention all 6 of my siblings are incredible. We fight sometimes, and we don't always agree. But there is so much love in this house.

Thank you Jesus for all you have given me.

Let me never to forget it comes from you.

:)

update--

i know. i know. blogging is honestly a MUST.

so i would love to tell you something life changing has happened. But lately it has just kinda been the same. Which is a good thing. Because there is nothing to not love about my life at the moment. I mean there i things that i would not mind being a little different here and there. But for the most part life is perfect!

Well first of all, please be praying for Carolyn Williams & the family. She is my Aunt Sonia's mother and she is probably one of the sweetest people you will ever meet. Growing up she was just like a grandmother to me. Unfortunately she has been battling ovarian cancer for around 10 years. She has had it 4 separate times and done chemo. Well this time the doctors said there was nothing they could do. So we are gonna have to let her go. Which is one of the hardest things ever for me to even think about. But if we could get our selfish little minds to go away for even just a minute, we would know that dying is the best thing that could happen to any of us. Grandar is going to be in a better place very soon. And better off than any of us has ever even thought about being. So i know i want to keep her here. But life will be so much better for her. Please just continue to keep the family in your prayers. : )

Second of all, it has kind of been one of those weeks. Where things all of a sudden out of no where fall apart. I know Satan is testing me. I just know it. But i am not going to let him get the best of me. He has tried to scramble things up a bit. But i will make sure he fails. After all if you really think about what is important in life, you learn that all the little things don't matter. I know my life is gonna have ups and downs where Satan is gonna try and get me but, the thing is... i know the end of the story. I know i belong to Jesus forever. and that is unchangeable.

Last but not least, im in love with summer. And this one has gone by MUCH too fast. But lucky for me i still have things to look forward to.( Like im going to the mountains and 25 people are staying in one house. But they are all like family so its gonna be GOOD times. : ) ) And even though i absolutely hate the thought of school starting back i know this is gonna be a good year. I can just feel it. This year just seems to exactly right. Everything is in place. I got great classes, perfect teachers. All of my friends are exactly who i want them to be. (the friend road has been a tough one lately) but i know where i am is perfect. I know it is where God wants me. Family is going great. Our sweet little Ethiopian princess gets closer everyday. (pray for that one). And i have my Jesus right next to me. : ) life is good.

blahh.

lovin life.

lovin people.

lovin Jesus.

SUMMER : )

AH.

SUMMER. SUMMER. SUMMER.

(its upon us)

so far my summer has been the best summer EVER.

I have already been to the beach, Choir Tour, VBS, Lake, and plenty of spend the nights.

Here is a picture update. :)

speechless.

ohhhhh mygosh.

im super super super sorry.

i know, i know. it has been like 3 months.

but i am reviving my blog as of right now.

So i am just gonna jump on this whole blogging thing again.

OKAY.

tonight i was at the christ city church event at hunter street.

wow.

i was left absolutely speechless multiple times.

we sang a song that i have not only heard but... sang a million times.

but tonight it had so much meaning to it.

it was like a brand new song being sang to my soul.

the lyrics are:

Creator God you gave

ME breath so i could praise

your great and MATCHLESS name

all my days, all my days.

i mean read that thoroughly.

are you still in shock?

i mean the only reason God gave us breath was for us to praise him.

he is JEALOUS for us. he wants us more than anyone else.

he does not want us to give any effort towards anything that would not help to further the kingdom.

and then on top of that, did you read the part that said

"his great and MATCHLESS name"

i mean. his name is totally and 100% matchless.

nothing on earth could even possible compare.

our good is as filthy rags to him...

so imagine what our sin looks like to him...

yeah, that is not a fun thought!

but goodness gracious.

why does he love us so much anyways.

could you truly love someone who is constantly stabbing you in the back.

constantly forgetting you. and putting retarded stuff before you.

NO.

but we act like that all the time. and God not only puts up with it.

he loves us no matter what. he forgives us no matter what.

He not only loves us enough to send his Son to die FOR us.

but INSTEAD of us.

(im gonna leave with that)

speechless.